Sunday, September 28, 2008
Heart shattered
Sunday night, time check:12 midnight. If really wanna use a few words to describe how i'm feeling now, sad, disappointed, numb. I really didn't think that i would be left alone again by the person who came into my heart without permission. I've made alot of call but none got through, words in my heart can only be kept to myself, its just like a well being fill to its brim liao. A question that has to asked only on wed, 01/10/08. One friend ask me do i really have to force her for that answer, can't i just give her more time, do i know how she is feeling right now? do i really want to push to the limit where both has to give up everything? I had been thinking of all this questions too, i know i can give her more time, as much as she needs, i can just be behind her no matter what happens, i really din ask for anything, i can even be just a passer-by in her life. But did anyone think of my feelings? Even if my heart is pain or hurt i rather keep quiet then to affect anyone else. I basically don't tell all this to my friends because all they can do is just to console me, i won't bother my family with all these r/s problems. I hate to cry, i only cried for 2 girls in my life, my tears always go back right into my heart, i learn to heal myself through time, because of this, my heart always feel so numb when i'm sad or hurt. Laugh all you one if you think its funny, but i'm really afraid to be hurt again. Once bitten twice shy.
9:01 AM